Lack

If I can impart a sense of self-life to my kids, I'll consider my job as a parent complete.

I want to be good. I want to feel like I matter. I try to do more good than harm for people in my life; I rarely feel like I can balance that scale, and I definitely don't feel like I do any real good.

The best I can do is be grateful for the I have while trying to be kind to myself -- attempting to see myself as a person who is both recipient and source of good things in this world.

It helps to hold my commitments to my little rituals, showing myself that I'm worth the investment. Today, I'm keeping up on this blog, and that's a start.